Date: 19/2/07
time: 3.07am
( Yesterday, we wanted to go out to semb beach de but yt cant and suddenly we talked about parents biased... and was angry and sad...)hmm.. yesterday 18/2/07 about 10+pm we all meet up to go for the sembawang beach for no reason. The most important reason i go there is to get the sea breeze, but im wrong when reached there. There is lots of people tenting and bbq-ing. also the sea breeze is too "weak". -.- then we started to open the liquor we bought just now and some snacks. 99% of the liqour is bought by reeza, rich guy.. haha... then we started drinking...
(1st msg: whu reali knw wat i m filin. nth!In pplz eyes im jux nth. My existence is nth. Wadeva i du,al taken4 granted!no mata how much i du.its nv enuf!) (then i say something about dont give up.)After awhile of exchanging of liqour some blur blur le, some high... at this time about 12.30am ivy cant tahan, she got stomachache and reeza & chris sent her home... me gavin jon gene yt walked from the park to the yishun the long track there.. once we reached the track, me and yt wanted to "shi shi" thats what she says... irritating but funny.. haha... we walked long long way its about 4.8km -.-! omt. we "ren" the .... walked and walked she and gavin playing behind while me jon listening to songs while gene do nothing....
(2nd msg: Dn gv up? Whu cares man! Human r al selfish. Im aso tired but no1 sees tat! Im so hurt by da ppl whu dun even realise it.. Suan le.. I deserve it al)(nv reply le)About half of the track, chris and reeza rejoined us... and they said ivy better le, so we cont. walked down the track.. gene and reeza doing nothing just walking... yt and gavin still playing too hyped-up. jon listening and me and chris listen to songs and sing sing sing.... Then finally when we finish the track, trouble arise -.-" to semb or yishun nearer to TOILET? and we took semb route and walked.. a long distance again and we had to do is walk...
(but 2dae meeting to beach to go home, she nv give away any unhappiness.. i scare later she "Bie tai Jiu" then when she really cant take it and "exploded" all the feelings, she will breakdown..)( but also not really sure whether she really happy anot, hard to tell, she should go become actoress.)We after walking for a distance, finally reached the coffeshop toilet, chiong to the toilet to relief... thennnnnnn... yt says her mum fetching her, means chris tag along as they stay near each other...sooo went to sunplaza and parted... i think now still driving home if not just reached home le ...ba....
( if she dont treasure herself, what we can do is to help her le. but for me i too lousy at thinking things to help la... i dont seems to be v. reliable who can confess their secrets to me... and even if they confess, i dont know how to help, but the least i can do is to stay by her side... previous phrase got say.. go see ba.)Nite NIte~~~
( Aint i tupid, cant help people. actually one of my aims is to help all the sad people to become happy de lor. something like councel people. but as a friend :( too weak, me too weak. i hate myself being weakling.)*.*
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