date: 21/1/07

weather: dark dark too dark


Today, went to visit grandfather again in the hospital and once we reached, the face is terrible, more weak and pale... even though his able to talk, run out of breathe easily... grandma is there since morning and one of my aunties... after awhile somemore people came. But what can we do? i start playing hp, everytime i look at his face, i feel sad wanting to cry but never though... haha... why do most human have to suffer before the very end of their life? i dont understand why cant people like me appreciate the fact that able to live is a wonderful thing... haiz.... btw after the visiting hours, we went back home ......

nite.... sweet dreams. we must live our lifes to the fullest and not having regrets in our life if possible... thats the meaning of living.


~Sad~